Why I never wanted to be a teacher

I have ALWAYS loved school.  I was that kid who asked for a white board for Christmas so I could teach my stuffed animals how to write in cursive.   I was that kid who couldn’t wait to open a fresh spiral notebook and begin filling it with notes at the start of the school year.  I was that kid who wouldn’t let any of her friends copy her homework, but instead insisted on tutoring them for an hour before school to make sure they understood it.  I was that kid who couldn’t wait to read through her syllabi on the first day of classes.  But as much as I loved school, I never, ever, ever wanted to be a teacher.  

I wanted to be a doctor.  I figured since I loved school so much, becoming a doctor would be perfect because I would basically be in school forever.  I also always loved science - a subject that there was ALWAYS more to learn about, so I knew if I chose a career in science I would get to be a forever student.  I had visions of my life being full of travel and saw myself healing orphans in Africa as I worked with Doctor’s Without Borders.  I was going to live the dream.

But then my life got wrecked in 2008 when I heard the Gospel for the first time and realized my life wasn’t actually about me at all.  I remember reading the book of John and hearing about Jesus and thinking – if only had I known this sooner.  A seed was planted in my heart that my life needed to be dedicated to sharing the truth of who Jesus is with high school girls because once I heard this truth, my life was changed forever and my only wish was that I had known sooner. 

I fought this though.  I didn’t want to have a job working with high schoolers.   I have always been so bad with kids.  I am not patient.  I need to be a doctor.  I need to fulfill my desires to always be learning, and to do something awesome like SAVE LIVES with all of my knowledge.

But as I went through college as a biology pre-med major, the Lord kept tugging on my heart.  He told me I was meant to live out my love of school by being a teacher.  He would give me a heart to love high schoolers.  He will give me the patience I need.  I will always be learning because every kid is different and I will constantly be pushed to learn how to best meet my students’ needs and learn how I can bring out the best in each of them as individuals. 

Most of all, God told me I am going to spend my life dedicated to saving lives.  Just not in a physical way, and not in a way that I will necessarily ever get to witness.  I was called to spend my life dying to myself in order to reflect Jesus in me more and more.  I was called to plant seeds in the hearts of high school students that their lives are so much bigger than they even can imagine, and that there is a sovereign and good God that wants to take their brokenness and their blindness and give them wholeness and sight. 

In short, I never chose this profession.  I never even wanted this profession.  But like most things, God often likes to wreck the plans we create for ourselves and replace them with His - which are so, so much better than we could ever imagine.  He puts us into situations that challenge us and push us towards dependence on Him.  Being in a job that requires the maximum amount of patience, I am pushed HOURLY to Jesus (causing me to regularly call on the wisdom of Carrie Underwood as I pray "Jesus take the wheel.") 

And let’s be honest.  I still get to be a forever student.  I still get to wear a lab coat.  But best of all, I still get to play a small part in saving lives.


I never wanted to be a high school teacher, but I am so glad I did!  Read why here. Hope this is a reminder and encouragement for maybe why YOU decided to teach! All of us teachers need encouragment!! By: It's Not Rocket Science



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  1. So glad I stumbled upon this! I'm encouraged.

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    1. So glad to hear that because just knowing someone actually read this encourages ME!

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  2. Rebecca, I have the SAME exact store!!! Biology Pre-Med and Senior year was researching spinal bifida and was crying at the computer. My professor told me to become a teacher where The only sickness I will see is snotty noses! 15 years later I'm still a scienc teach and love every moment of it! I am so glad I stumbled across your Pinterest page, your TpT and website! You are giving me life!

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    1. What in the world!! I'm so glad you stumbled onto me too and we've now connected! How crazy!! So encouraging too to hear you've been doing this for 15 years! That's amazing! Love that we are in the business of saving lives together this way :)

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  3. Wow, thank you so much for this! I just graduate from a passionately Catholic university with biology and education. I relate to your story an incredible amount and it was very encouraging to read. Also, your entire blog is so extremely helpful, especially as I apply for teaching jobs and just need some ideas about classroom management and engaging students. Thanks for doing what you do and saying yes to His Will.

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    1. Thank you for taking the time to read and post! I am humbled by your words and am encouraged by YOU! SO glad you found my page and it has been helpful for you! Please reach out if you ever have any questions, I'd love to help!

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  4. Thank you so much for your beautiful testimony. I felt the same way about teaching and fought it for many years. God put it on my heart and I haven't regretted it since I started. Here I am 10 years later, touching lives everyday.

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